The Fair System Isn’t So Fair…


***The above photo is a ink illustattion I did back in 2015. This piece called, “Cracked.”***

For years I have been asking the government for help. I live with Ehlers Danlos Syndrome, Postural Orthostatic Tachicardia and am borderline Mastocytosis. According to my doctors I am unable to work and considered disabled. However, I have yet to receive disability as it is something I have been applying to get for a few years now. To learn about these conditions please see my first blog post written by my husband.

You can find it here:

When I tell people I do not have disability they look baffled and confused. For a while I shrugged it off. After multiple refusals denying me help (because to me it is denying someone help that needs help) I knew I could no longer keep my mouth shut.

I have heard of many other people that friends or family members that have been able to aquire Federal or Provincal disability.

I have been talking to others that are on disability here in BC, and they tell me that they are only given a little over $900 a month. Who can afford to live off of that especially here on Vancouver island. Rent alone is around $700-$1300 depending on your residence.

Needless to say this fuelled me more. People living with medical expenses like drugs, and medical equipment how are they expected to have a good quality of life while struggling to survive. No wonder people skip meds, and don’t get the treatements they need.

Living with any chronic illness is hard enough without adding the stress of medical expenses. I’ll use the following as an example so that those living without disease or illness maybe able to understand.

Say for instance you get Cancer. Did you know you may have to pay for your treatment regiment? Say your having chemo did you know chemo costs.

Here is a prime example; a woman in Toronto in 2009 had a neuroendocrine tumour that had metastasized, she could take a drug that would help her. It costs $8,000 a month.

You can read about this here:

No one goes out of their way to get sick. When we do get ill we would hope that if we are unable to work, and can’t afford to live that the government would help us out. Many people have to resort to fundraising.

I feel as though I am being pushed aside by the system. Is this because they don’t understand my conditions and diseases. Is it because I do not appear to be disabled.

What part of I feel like I am a fish being deboned alive makes it seem like I can work? I would love to work.

I have dreams and hopes. They have been broken and smashed, by disease. Now what am I to do? Fade away into the background and not speak up? I think not.

I am here to say the system is not fair. Just like life in itself isn’t fair. I have been handed an “unfair card” in life (I heard this from many people over the years). Now an “unfair” card in my search for disability? If I don’t talk no one will learn about the things I face.

I will not continue to be quiet, I will voice my opinion. I matter. I am ill. I am tried, but I will never give up. I will die trying if I have to. This is an issue that needs to be addressed.

Thank you kindly for you time always.

I remain hopeful always,



Who Am I? I Am A Fighter!


***The photo above is of a cancerous thryoid. I painted this the year I was diagnosed with cancer***

My husband wrote a lovely piece about me and I wanted to share it here. It describes everything I have dealt with in regards to my health. He has been a support to me in ways I can not express. Diseases maybe a huge part of why I am the way I am.

“The hardest thing for my wife to do is ask for money. She has struggled with her independence the last four years. Her digression started in early 2008, with the last four years being the hardest on us. With Anna’s conditions getting worse and her symptoms more frequent, I have seen her give up many joys in life. She does her best to put a positive spin on her conditions, but sadly they’re degenerative. In time she will only get worse. We have applied for government disability (CPP), but have been denied each time.

Here is Anna’s story:

In early March of 2008, she was diagnosed with Thyroid Cancer. Because the cancer was very advanced, she went into major surgery within a few weeks. What was originally thought to be a 3 hour procedure wound up taking close to 6 hours. Upon completion, she had her thyroid and her parathyroid removed, as well as 29 pieces of her neck that tested positive for metastatic papillary carcinoma (Cancer).

Although the surgery was deemed successful, the trauma that her body experienced awakened dormant genetic monsters. As rare syndromes and disorders, it took almost two years of testing with many different doctors and specialists in Victoria and Vancouver to start deciphering some of the puzzle.

For starters, she was diagnosed with EDS and POTS. Let me explain what EDS & POTS are:

Ehlers-Danlos Syndrome (EDS):
– an inherited connective tissue disorder.
– EDS is caused by a defect in the structure, production, or processing of collagen or proteins.
– Collagen is an important contributor to the physical strength of skin, joints, muscles, ligaments, blood vessels and visceral organs; abnormal collagen renders these structures more elastic. In some cases, the severity of the mutation can be life-threatening.
– EDS is a chronic pain disease, with patients suffering daily.
– The hypermobility type of EDS sometimes co-occurs with POTS. This type of EDS is characterized by loose, clicking joints prone to subluxations and dislocations.
– Because one can ‘appear’ healthy despite EDS, it is considered an invisible disability.

Postural Orthostatic Tachycardia Syndrome (POTS):
– a condition in which a change from the supine position to an upright position causes an abnormally increase the heart rate.
– symptoms include palpitations, light-headedness, chest discomfort, shortness of breath, weakness, blurred vision, fainting, migraine-like headaches.
– the causes of POTS are poorly understood.

The diagnosis of EDS and POTS seemed to answer a few of the questions, but some queries were left unresolved. As time passed, more issues presented themselves and the plot thickened. No one could explain the rashes and hives that her skin would periodically experience.

More medical tests were taken, skin biopsies cut-out, and plenty of time spent waiting to see specialists from various fields ultimately get stumped. Eventually after what seemed like another year or two, an allergist/immunologist diagnosed her as having ‘borderline’ Mastocytosis.

– a rare mast cell activation disorder.
– People affected by Mastocytosis are susceptible to itching, hives, and anaphylactic shock, caused by the release of histamine from mast cells.
– There is currently no cure for Mastocytosis.
– a ‘low-histamine- diet helps treat the symptoms.

Due to the borderline Mastocytosis Anna is on a ‘low histamine diet’, and is in need of air purifiers and daily allergy medication. These allergy meds as well as her post-cancer surgery medications, and the ‘low histamine diet’ shopping list are quite costly.

Another concern with Anna having all of these ‘things’ is that she can not take the usual medications and pain-relievers. She is either allergic or negatively affected by their adverse side-affects. It’s not uncommon for her to be in the hospital, only to have things made worse by an attending physician trying something new.

These incurable conditions leave her on her own trying to manage the pain and somehow find comfort. She has some braces for various parts of her body to help keep her joints in place. We currently own knee, ankle, wrist, shoulder and neck braces, as well as wedge pillows. The ankle, shoulder and neck braces were custom-made at quite a hefty cost. We’re looking at having some knee and finger braces custom-made.

As mentioned earlier, we’ve been denied CPP (government disability). We have paperwork from doctor’s and specialist’s stating that Anna is in chronic discomfort with restricted activity, severe exhaustion and overwhelming fatigue.

Here are some of her doctor’s words;

“Anna is motivated to do things and constantly tries to increase her activity & strength, but unfortunately her progress is fragmented and prone to many setbacks. I honestly do not know who would employ someone with Anna’s health issues.”

While it’s certainly not a glowing review, it is the truth. The truth hurts sometimes.

Because Anna’s conditions are rare, poorly understood and invisible, it is extremely hard to explain what is going on to the uninformed. It’s not unusual to be met with bewildered looks from supposed professionals. Often it seems that Anna has become a fascinating science project for the various specialists.

Anna is currently in Calgary amongst testing from Alberta’s curious professional observers. From past experience I can tell them right now, “No, it’s not Lupus.” However, the one thing we’ve learned from Alberta is that their medical system appears to be a little quicker, and Calgary has an EDS specialist (even more rare than the syndrome itself).

The intricacies of Anna’s situation, and the toll that it takes mentally can become quite challenging. I can not think of a stronger woman than her.”

-Mr. Werrun